This morning I awoke at 4:30am with a burning desire to practice yoga inversions and arm balances.
While I have felt this urge before, it has always been immediately stifled by inhibiting thoughts like, "You'll never be able to do those advanced poses – you're not worthy of doing them. They're not worth trying, you'll only get discouraged. You're not strong enough, they called you "spaghetti arms" in gymnastics." (Side note, the last time I did gymnastics in a class setting was when I was 4!)
Well, today was different. The desire was so strong that it was impossible to deny. I climbed out of bed, turned on my Himalayan salt lamp, and rolled out my yoga mat next to a wall. I did a quick search on my phone, "inversions for beginners", and clicked on one of the first videos that popped up. My learner's mind was activated, and I was excited to give this a try.
As the video commenced, I was pleasantly surprised to find that the teacher was someone I follow and look to regularly for guidance. I began moving to her instruction with no expectations (– the only previous experience I had with inversions were headstands, which I learned at my yoga teacher training.)
20 minutes later, I had done a tripod headstand and even gotten up to a handstand!
Awe and slight disbelief pulsated through my body. For so long I thought I couldn't do this, yet there I was, after 20 minutes, nailing it. I repeated the poses to confirm to myself that my accomplishments weren't a fluke.
I was empowered and invigorated, and wanted to keep going! I did a search for arm balances. A 3-minute video tutorial for crow pose appeared. I clicked on it, and 3 minutes later I had found my equilibrium there (only for a few seconds, mind you, but I did it!).
Wow – what a perfect example of how insecurities and preconceived notions can block personal growth.
As I reflect on my experience, my questions for all of us are: Can we continually shed our old, inhibiting stories, and live life with a beginner's mind? Can we trust our intuitions when we feel them, and act accordingly? Can we recognize a restricting thought when it creeps in, and let it go?
I am super inspired to grow in my newly discovered categories of yoga asanas. I will treat my practice as a beautiful exploration and have fun along the way. I will commit to a few minutes or more each day, with no rigid structure, no expectations, allowing it to open what it will.
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